?????

i need to get away from this depression. willie needs to find a job i need to find something to help with bills i think i am getting to a point of panic-

he's been out of work for 2 weeks and is asking me what he should be doing. normally it's don't tell me what to do. vahan wants to cut my pay by a thousand a month- too much- he's desparate -I get that but he hasn't cut andys pay and he got rid of the snake tony (who has gone to the competition with a customer list- maybe we shouldn't do anything-he's so incompetent he'll ruin himself there too! TONY LOPEZ incompetent sales person-snake-pervert-sneaky s.o.b.-I want it out there for all to see) so there should be enough to compromise

I AM TIRED

 

Jaime Jaime Jaime

on the other hand here is this gorgeous baby. No matter how bad things get this face makes my heart race and smile. I haven't met her in person yet. She'll be a year in November but for now these pictures have to do. I hear her on the phone and boy am I in love!

I should get to work......

more life

well it happened- they fired him. I haven't reached the point of panic yet. Next week when I have to pay the mortgage panic will set in. Vahan wants to cut my pay by a thousand a month-we are negotiating. I am looking for something part time in the evenings or weekends and Stephanie & I are taking tax prep courses. George - my insurance man- said he can set me up to be a bail bonds person-I am SURE I can find clientele in Pomona!

I definitely do not have the enthusiasm for this job that I had before. I come in everyday and sit at my desk then I sort of veg out for a while. It's kind of a catch 22---I need to push for sales to survive and help the company survive but I can't push because I am feeling down because of $$$$ issues-but if I don't push harder the $$$ issues get worse......

Andy just called. He's my parts/warehouse mgr. He's 22 yrs old, with a wife and daughter. Drives 50+ miles every day to work. Runs the warehouse and parts department. I depend on him a hundred times a day! His mother had a heart attack at 3 this morning. He's at the hospital with her right now. Poor kid was crying and it breaks my heart.

It kind of puts things in perspective. Willie and I are relatively healthy. Stephanie is healthy. Jaime and his family are doing well. Mom and Pop are still here. God definitely has a plan-I am not sure what it is and because I am a curious (controlling???) person I would like to know what that plan is-but I have to have faith.

another update on ID Theft

It's almost over. I got letters from ChexSystems releasing me - but they had to add the stipulation that they would put all the negative shit back on my name if any of the banks complain again.

I am still waiting to see the videos from the bank ATM machines. Hopefully soon.

life

things have a way of keeping my life interesting-STRESSFUL-but interesting.

It seems we go 2 steps forward and 1.5 back - nothing comes easy for us! Willie may lose his job: they're already cutting his hours. Instead of the 60 hour peg he was guaranteed when they pulled him out of Fresh Start and took him to Galasso's (to be their lead driver for Vegas) they are now sending him local 2 days a week where he gets between 6 to 10 hours (of hard labor!!!) this is a sugnificant drop in his pay. He's losing 16 hours a month and they are looking for reasons to fire him.

Vahan wants to cut my pay by a $1000 a month. I am sure he knows I won't go for it. He tried for lay me off 2 weeks ago and I wouldn't let him! I asked him who was going to do sales with me gone he said he would "ok- do you know who to talk to?"no "Do you know how to enter pymnts?" no "Shipping?" no Well then how can you let me go? He told me ok ok keep coming in. now he wants to cut my pay.

the week before Willie had an angiogram - thank God he's ok (So's  my Jaime except he does have a swollen heart and no one knows why- he does have to take meds and be careful but he'll be ok-there is no other option!)

two weeks ago Jaime, Marva and the kids had to leave New Orleans because of hurricane Gustav. They went with his Dad to Nashville. Thank God  the asshole's wife is a good person. she treats Jaime well and loves the baby and gets along so well with Marva. Marva takes little Jaime over their house oin the mornings before she goes to work so Lyn can visit for a while. I am really glad my son has her. I am really jealous.

Because of the ID theft- I am a month behind in my mortgage. CitiBank deferred a payment so we're ok there but First Horizon- boy what a bunch of dumb shits. I told them I was a victim of ID theft and could they help- a payment plan or deferment or something so we won't be forever a month behind and the stupid punk kd tells me-is your paycheck frozen too? why don't you just pay your bill? I wished him and his family an attack by the fleas of a thousand camels in their crotches before I hung up on him.

Now the pool filter is leaking. My floor in the kitchen is rotting. When the dumb $@! put in the floor he supposedly checked underneath and said the sub floor was fine. Evidentlty he is not only an idiot-he's also inept. My subfloor has water damage from the flooding and for this reason I have had to change the tiles 6 TIMES!!!!! The grout keeps cracking and now the tiles are cracking......................

I think I am going to find an apartment by the beach and dream about meeting my Granddaughter- she sounds so cute on the phone. She sings and yells and makes so many happy noises.