?????

i need to get away from this depression. willie needs to find a job i need to find something to help with bills i think i am getting to a point of panic-

he's been out of work for 2 weeks and is asking me what he should be doing. normally it's don't tell me what to do. vahan wants to cut my pay by a thousand a month- too much- he's desparate -I get that but he hasn't cut andys pay and he got rid of the snake tony (who has gone to the competition with a customer list- maybe we shouldn't do anything-he's so incompetent he'll ruin himself there too! TONY LOPEZ incompetent sales person-snake-pervert-sneaky s.o.b.-I want it out there for all to see) so there should be enough to compromise

I AM TIRED

 

Jaime Jaime Jaime

on the other hand here is this gorgeous baby. No matter how bad things get this face makes my heart race and smile. I haven't met her in person yet. She'll be a year in November but for now these pictures have to do. I hear her on the phone and boy am I in love!

I should get to work......

more life

well it happened- they fired him. I haven't reached the point of panic yet. Next week when I have to pay the mortgage panic will set in. Vahan wants to cut my pay by a thousand a month-we are negotiating. I am looking for something part time in the evenings or weekends and Stephanie & I are taking tax prep courses. George - my insurance man- said he can set me up to be a bail bonds person-I am SURE I can find clientele in Pomona!

I definitely do not have the enthusiasm for this job that I had before. I come in everyday and sit at my desk then I sort of veg out for a while. It's kind of a catch 22---I need to push for sales to survive and help the company survive but I can't push because I am feeling down because of $$$$ issues-but if I don't push harder the $$$ issues get worse......

Andy just called. He's my parts/warehouse mgr. He's 22 yrs old, with a wife and daughter. Drives 50+ miles every day to work. Runs the warehouse and parts department. I depend on him a hundred times a day! His mother had a heart attack at 3 this morning. He's at the hospital with her right now. Poor kid was crying and it breaks my heart.

It kind of puts things in perspective. Willie and I are relatively healthy. Stephanie is healthy. Jaime and his family are doing well. Mom and Pop are still here. God definitely has a plan-I am not sure what it is and because I am a curious (controlling???) person I would like to know what that plan is-but I have to have faith.

another update on ID Theft

It's almost over. I got letters from ChexSystems releasing me - but they had to add the stipulation that they would put all the negative shit back on my name if any of the banks complain again.

I am still waiting to see the videos from the bank ATM machines. Hopefully soon.

life

things have a way of keeping my life interesting-STRESSFUL-but interesting.

It seems we go 2 steps forward and 1.5 back - nothing comes easy for us! Willie may lose his job: they're already cutting his hours. Instead of the 60 hour peg he was guaranteed when they pulled him out of Fresh Start and took him to Galasso's (to be their lead driver for Vegas) they are now sending him local 2 days a week where he gets between 6 to 10 hours (of hard labor!!!) this is a sugnificant drop in his pay. He's losing 16 hours a month and they are looking for reasons to fire him.

Vahan wants to cut my pay by a $1000 a month. I am sure he knows I won't go for it. He tried for lay me off 2 weeks ago and I wouldn't let him! I asked him who was going to do sales with me gone he said he would "ok- do you know who to talk to?"no "Do you know how to enter pymnts?" no "Shipping?" no Well then how can you let me go? He told me ok ok keep coming in. now he wants to cut my pay.

the week before Willie had an angiogram - thank God he's ok (So's  my Jaime except he does have a swollen heart and no one knows why- he does have to take meds and be careful but he'll be ok-there is no other option!)

two weeks ago Jaime, Marva and the kids had to leave New Orleans because of hurricane Gustav. They went with his Dad to Nashville. Thank God  the asshole's wife is a good person. she treats Jaime well and loves the baby and gets along so well with Marva. Marva takes little Jaime over their house oin the mornings before she goes to work so Lyn can visit for a while. I am really glad my son has her. I am really jealous.

Because of the ID theft- I am a month behind in my mortgage. CitiBank deferred a payment so we're ok there but First Horizon- boy what a bunch of dumb shits. I told them I was a victim of ID theft and could they help- a payment plan or deferment or something so we won't be forever a month behind and the stupid punk kd tells me-is your paycheck frozen too? why don't you just pay your bill? I wished him and his family an attack by the fleas of a thousand camels in their crotches before I hung up on him.

Now the pool filter is leaking. My floor in the kitchen is rotting. When the dumb $@! put in the floor he supposedly checked underneath and said the sub floor was fine. Evidentlty he is not only an idiot-he's also inept. My subfloor has water damage from the flooding and for this reason I have had to change the tiles 6 TIMES!!!!! The grout keeps cracking and now the tiles are cracking......................

I think I am going to find an apartment by the beach and dream about meeting my Granddaughter- she sounds so cute on the phone. She sings and yells and makes so many happy noises.

Jaime

My Jaime had to have an angiogram last week. I am terrified. It's worse because I can't be there with him to hold his hand and make sure the doctors are doing their work correctly! I don't have a problem with control- I just know how to do things right! They had to give him insulin before the procedure because his sugar shot up to 300!

My baby is working hard to do things right too. He's such a good Daddy to his Angel. She is so cute! She has a good set of lungs too- I hear her yoddeling at the top of her lungs when she sees him. And he's so good with Danny his step son. I know it's hard because he is so far away from us. I don't know if I could make it so far away and on my own. I like having my family around (who else would I bitch about?)

8/20 7:30pm Jaime just called to tell me that JE stood up by herself!Then she proceeded to yell and scare herself and fall on her face. What a talented child! My granddaughter is awesome. I want to see her so badly it hurts. She's going to be a yeart old in November and I still haven't seen her!!!

yippppeeeee!

IT HAS TAKEN ME A MONTH OF PHONE CALLS LETTERS FIGHTING CRYING AND PRAYING AND I JUST GOT A CALL THAT OUR ACCOUNT HAS BEEN RELEASED AND ALL NEGATIVE REPORTS HAVE BEEN REMOVED!!!!! I have called the police and the FBI - I have filed reports with the FTC and all credit reporting bureaus, ChexSystems, Wachovia, Washington Mutual, Bank of America, Citibank, US Bancorp ans HSBC-I went through ITAC7 and IT3. My name is out there and redflagged and if it EVER happens again I will have to kill someone!

but yay- I can use my ATM card again.

I am going to follow through on this. I called the FBI and he told me that they usually do not get involved unless it's millions of dollars, etc but I told him it stretched from Washington state to Texas and they were putting other people's stolen checks into my account so it's not only me involved. I want these bastards caught and punished.

It's gotten too easy for this to happen. You go into the bank and they don't ask for ID to cash checks any more- all you need is an ATM card and a pin number. You can open an account with anyone's name and get a card with that name. Then you assign any pin number and that's all it takes.

Update on theft

Everyday I spend a minimum 2 hours on the phone with investigators, police, bank personnel and faceless people that want to run my life. The police department is rude and treats me as if I am a criminal. I get help from "loan councelors" that tell me to "just pay the bill" when I am calling them to tell them my bank account is frozen and I need to make some kind of arrangement so I don't fall behind. "Your pay check isn't frozen is it?" We are surrounded by idiots.

An example of how stupid I have become: I went to the bank to get something notarized. The idiot there-I don't want to mention any names ( PERLA ) starts to tell me that I am so confused that I don't know what I am talking about. After a few minutes of this I tell her I won't deal with her any more and to get the manager. As she walks away, she picked up her notary book but left the stamp on the table (which any one with a half a brain knows you aren't supposed to do!) I picked it up and put it in my purse then went to the lobby and sat and waited for the manager. Perla ran back a forth for 20 minutes looking under the desk and all around. When she went back upstairs I put the stamp behind her monitor. I went to her and told her where it was. She tells me-I knew you took it! I told her- "Of course I did-who else have you been so rude a shitty to this week? I wanted you to know what it feels like to lose something important" AS IF I AM SO STUPID TO NOT REALIZE THERE ARE CAMERAS EVERYWHERE!!!

Identity Theft

Below are copies of emails written to friends, family AND to any bank managers whose emails I was able to find.

 

 

FOR THE SECOND TIME IN A YEAR AND A HALF WE ARE VICTIMS OF IDENTITY THEFT.

 

AGAIN- SOMEONE HAS HACKED INTO OUR BANK AND OPENED ACCOUNTS WITH OUR INFORMATION. NOW ALL OUR FUNDS ARE ON HOLD. ALL MY PAYMENTS-MORTGAGE, INSURANCE, CAR ETC ARE BOUNCING AND IT WILL TAKE AT LEAST ANOTHER 3 MONTHS BEFORE ALL THE LATE CHARGES AND FEES AND BULLSHIT IS STRAIGHTENED OUT.

 

I AM NOT SENDING THIS OUT FOR PITY OR SYMPATHY- I AM SENDING THIS OUT TO BEG MY FRIENDS AND LOVED ONES TO PLEASE PLEASE PLEASE BE CAREFUL!!! IT IS BETTER TO HAVE "OTHERS" THINK OF YOU AS PARANOID THAN IT IS TO GO THROUGH THIS.

 

SHRED ALL YOUR PRIVATE PAPERS- IF YOU DO NOT HAVE A SHREDDER TEAR EVERYTHING UP (BILLS, BANK STATEMENTS- ANYTHING WITH ANY INFORMATION ON IT) AND THROW THE PIECES IN DIFFERENT TRASH BAGS SO THEY CAN NOT BE PUT TOGETHER.

DO NOT GIVE YOUR INFORMATION OUT TO ANYONE.

 

I DON'T KNOW HOW THEY GOT ME AGAIN BECAUSE I THOUGHT I WAS CAREFUL. EVIDENTLY NOT CAREFUL ENOUGH.

 

On 7/12/08 I went into the West Covina branch Wamu and was told I could not access my accounts because " I was overdrawn at the other bank" I told the teller I had no other dealings with any other bank and she told me "yes you do -it's here in my computer"

 

(In May 2007, our online banking was accessed by an offshore account. I was not notified and only found out after I tried to use my ATM card. My husband and I had to go in to the Montclair branch and close the accounts and reopen them-after we proved our identity etc. It took us over 3 months to correct late payments and bounced checks)

 

I told the teller on Saturday that I could not believe this was happening to us again! After several minutes of arguing she believed me enough to get a suppervisor. This supervisor called someone- I believe customer service- and then came back to me and told me to call some 800 number that was automated. I told her I could not wait 2 weeks for someone to get back to me. I wish I had taken their names.

 

I called the Montclair branch thinking that since they had helped before maybe they could help again. I spoke with Perla Mulgado. She said she would see what she could do-I told her I was on my way over.

 

Monday 7/13-I had to take off work and wait 2 hours in the Social Security office to get a validation letter. I tried to make a police report but could not because they want info from the bank but the bank would not give me any info unless there was a police report....I think you see where I am going with this. After several attempts I finally was able to make a preliminary report with promises to suppliment so the police can ultimately investigate. I spoke with the FTC and I was told that since the account has my SS number and MY name I must be allowed access to the information. I also put fraud alerts at all the credit agencies.

 

Tuesday 7/14- My husband and I went into the bank in Montclair to submit the paperwork and sat in the lobby for almost 2 hours before someone came to help us. The receptionist told us that the branch manager was on an important phone call and would help us after - unless the operations manager came in first. I realize she may have been busy but she took customers that arrived after we did and never once acknowledged our presence. The operations mgr finally came in and did tell us that several accounts were opened with Wamu! I need to know why the account was not flagged or monitored. The bank knows we were comprised before- how could someone anonymously open that many accounts in my name without question.

 

I spoke with the FBI. I was told from all the information I gave him it sounds "very likely that it is an inside job and someone is stealing the information and funneling it to different parties"

 

7/17/08 I went into the bank to have the paperwork notarized. Perla (how lucky I am!!)  I asked her why she did not tell me on Saturday that I had several accounts opened at Wamu. People person that she is- HA!- she tells me I did- you're just so confused that you don't know what you are talking about. Yes that went over well. 

Friends

I am blessed. I don't have a lot of friends but the ones I have are appreciated and loved and gifts from God. I consider myself lucky.

Stephanie is my daughter and my best friend. Sarcastic, witty, intelligent, funny quick with answers, and a pain in the ass. Her big brother Jaime is a year older and just as funny and smart and brilliant. He is now a Daddy and his daughter is his life. He will do everything possible to give her a good life and protect her from the world. She will wrap him around her little finger. Jamie has had it harder than Stephanie- he's been on his own for a while and his strength to survive is amazing

Other than Stephanie & Jaime- Danny is the only person that understands my brain. I can start a sentence in the middle and they'll pick up on what I want to say. I can laugh and be as sarcastic as I like and as off the wall as I want. And no judging. He's smart funny brilliant responsible. He has spent the last half of life taking care of his older sister, her daughter and his brother. He is resourceful-He is starting his own company: ePitre Solutions. I love him like a son and a very very good friend..

I don't remember life without Patsi. Her family and mine met when I was 2. Her parents became my Uncle Jack and my Aunt Clara. She is closer than family.

Khatoun is like a sister. She is kind and generous. She takes food and clothing to the homeless in downtown.  She is the epitome of Mother Earth. She hurt herself a few years ago running a day care center at USC and is in constant pain. I pray she feels better soon.

I have a really good friend who has just written a book- The Chipping Away of America. Although I haven't yet read the book- (I'm waiting for my signed copy!!!) I know it hits home. She knows what she is talking about because she thouroughly researches everything. June Cain Miller Henry has passion in her convictions and gets her point across. Sometimes that point is sharp and hurts but it's always on the mark! She is funny witty and knows what she is talking about. I love her dearly and am proud to call her a friend.

Denise: She is my Barbie doll friend. She is beautiful, bright, courageous and she is a true survivor. She was in a horrible accident some years ago - she was thrown from a vehicle driven by an idiot driving too fast and drunk. She broke her neck and was told she'd never walk again. Denise decided with God's help she would prove them all wrong and she did. Today she bicycles through the Napa Valley (150 miles) she runs her own advertising company  ( www.mooremediala.com) and promotes acts in Las Vegas.

Carmella works with me at Apollo Motors. She is the funniest person I have met in a long time. She has no shame and sometimes what comes out of her mouth even embarasses me!! I have only known her a short time but I know we'll be friends for many many years to come. I look forward to a stronger relationship with this woman. Her Granddaughter reminds me of mine. Little Miss Melani is the cutest smartest little girl. She comes in and Hey Miss Susie- How are you today? I could hug her forever!

 

 

snakes

I hate snakes especially the 2 legged variety!

my grand baby

My grandbaby is growing like a weed. She's starting to walk all around while hanging on to things. She climbs over everything and sound like she is fearless! I get pictures and she just gets cuter and cuter!!!

just thoughts

Last week was my birthday. 57 now. I really feel like my age now. Never did before. I seem to be tired all the time. I still run rings around the younger ones at work but once I get home my energy goes.

The week before they called me at work and said they couldn't wake Papa. He had a 104 fever and wasn't responding. I left work and the nurse was there waiting for the social worker to come out and the doctor to call. Mom didn't want to take him to the hospital again. We decided that we could get the IV for antibiotics and a hospital bed. I knew if he woke up in the hospital, it would have definitely messed with his mind. The social worker came and sat us down and proceeded to "prepare us" for Pop's death. She wanted us to call the priests for last rites and to get ready for his death, His BP was down to 70/40. She said once it got this low, it meant he was dying. I told her it happened before in the hospital- his temp was reduiculously high, he was not moving- almost comatose, I told her once the fever broke and he started moving around the bp would move up. She told me not to have unrealistic expectations.

For the last year, I''ve woken up every single day with the thought that "wow- I haven't got a call saying he died- Thank you God it means one more day with him"

I dont have unrealistic thoughts. I just know he rallys over and over. 

I touched his cheek and asked him if he wanted to go to the doctor. He had tears on his cheek. Heartbreaking.

At 11:30 pm- he woke up and was going upstairs for breakfast. At 5am Mama told him to please go to bed and he thought it was 5 in the afternoon. It happened a few times at the hospital where he lost track of the day.

 

Goosebumps

I just saw a utube posting for someone named Paul Potts. He tried out on the British version of Idol. He walked up to the microphone, a chubby man, very bad teeth, looking very awkward and said he was going to sing opera. There were snickers in the audience, Simon Cowel smirked and the other 2 judges just sort of dead panned him. He opened his mouth and began to sing Nessum Dorma and the crowd went wild. Simon's jaw dropped- the woman judge had tears- he got a standing ovation! I had goosebumps- what an amazing voice! Go to utube and search "Paul Potts"......

Have a good Memorial Day Weekend!

I have been so lazy today! I've hardly left the bedroom, I've been reading blogs all day and watching the Law and Order marathon. I didn't even get out of my pjs until 1:30.

It's 9:30 and I'm pretty sick of it right now. Laziness is cool but starts to get boring. I guess I need to get up and get ready so I can go to bed soon!!

 

buying a house

We bought a house in 2006. I know wrong time because the value plunged after we moved in. We finalzed in July 2006 and didn't move in until May 2007. The day after we took possession the bathroom flooded and the story began:

July 13th-

¨       When I got to the house today, Art had torn out the floor in the big bathroom and torn into the 2 walls. He said everything is wet and needs to dry out before he can go on.

¨      Art needed to access the pipes so he opened the wall where Jim's realtor had made the repairs. He found that Jim and his realtor only hid the corroded pipes. He found a pipe with bondo all over it – and corroded! Jim said he was going to fix this pipe. He had told us that he was in the process of changing the pipe and it would be done before he left.

It has been a while since I have entered any info. What a nightmare this is turning into! This Morning Willie went to the house and said that there were several men waiting outside to go in and start tearing up the house. He asked to see their work order. Just for today the cost was $3500! What happened to the $5000 cap? If it's going to cost this much just to rip everything out...good grief! We really need help.

 

 Willie told the the workers he didn’t want to be stuck with a $30,000 bill when they finished. They laughed and said yeah that’s what will happen. I called the insurance and told Blake what happened and he told me that this kind of info could not have come from Alliance. I asked him if he was calling my husband a liar. I'm calling an advocate.

 

Blake seemed very upset that I called Hratch. He told me that this was going to delay the work and that since he was the one that was going to write up the estimate, calling an advocate would only cause problems. He told me that the advocate would take a huge chunk of what ever monies I was to be paid. I told him that I was only worried about getting stuck with a huge bill and I only wanted to guarantee that the work would all get paid for.

 

Anyway- I could go on. Suffice it to say that it only got worse and took over $75,000 just for repairs! If I hated the house, I could walk away but I saw the possibilities from the first moment I saw the house.  We still have things to finish and little by little they will get done. For now I love my house. I have a brand new kitchen, both bathrooms and even the pool was replastered!

 

Mama & Papa

When Mom & Pop came to this country, they had been living in a DP camp in Stuttgard, Germany. Angie was actually born there. They had to wait to find a sponsor to bring them to America. Papa was so grateful- he painted their house- inside and out, while starting a job at Ford Motor Company and trying to learn English.

Papa made a name for himself dancing at different events. He started to dance when he was very young in Armenia, and won competitions in Moscow and elsewhere. He survived the war dancing for the armies, after he was a POW.

He has certificates from the Michigan State Fair and the 250th Anniversary of the City of Detroit. He has certificates from Congress and many cities for his participation in celebrations. He danced until a few years ago-he danced at Zaven's baptism 2 years ago.

Mama stayed up nights sewing costumes and danced right next to him. She recently danced at Talin's birthday and at Shant's wedding. She just turned 82 on the 6th. I hope I am still able to dance at that age. Papa turned 91 on March 1st this year.

5/9/08 Papa has always loved his garden. He had me take pictures of all his plants and I put them alltogether in a little book for him. He actually made a title page- "Jora's Garden" - and showed it to all his friends at the club. Lately he's gotten so tired he hardly goes out there any more but there was a time not too long ago when he was climbing down the hill in back to his tomato plants and grape vines. He would put in pieces of dried up plants in the ground and sprout the most beautiful plants. I put in a beautiful plant and end up with dried up sticks! I talked to Mom today- she said Pop was sitting outside in the patio.

63 years. They have been married for 63 years. There are times when I can't be around Willie for 63 minutes and they've been together for 63 years. They survived a war. They survived coming to a brand new country. They survived not knowing if their families were still alive or not. They survived raising three kids. They survived and did well. These days we complain about our difficult lives. Hmm. Could we have survived being picked up and put in labor camp at the age of fifteen? Being torn away from family so no one knew if you were alive?  I'd like to think I could do what was necessary to protect myself and my family- but do I have their strength? Thank God - Thanks to them and their sacrifices I don't have to find out. Hopefully my children will one day say that I did what was necessary for them to have a better life.

I don't know how to thank my parents. I don't know how to apologize for the crap we put them through. I can only try to love them and pray they realize how grateful I am for their love.

When I was younger I used to get embarassed to say I was Armenian. People always said really dumb things like "you mean Romanian" or is that the same as Russian. Now I look back and think what a bunch of idiots! If I had been smarter or less unsure of myself I would have put people in their place!

Same with the dancing: I remember Mr Lewis at the end of our street-Server Ave- cutting mine and Armen's hair one day. I told him we had danced at the Philharmonic Auditorium and he didn't believe me. He actually said I was making it up then said I was confused. I remember going home crying.

I was 6 when we danced at the L.A. Phliharmonic for the first time. The elastic broke on Armen's pants and they started to fall- he turned around and said Mom fix them please and then finished his dance! I look at the pictures now and I laugh because we look like bobble head figures. Mama & Papa were something though-even Angie looked great. They were so young-we all were! I remember people coming up and being so impressed at our talent. Even now you can tell who has been taught by Pop- the hands give it away.

So many of the Armenians in Montebello were in our dance groups- Lydia & Mike, Haig & Hilda, Serge, John & Karen, Marsha, Anita (both of them) Knarik, Alex, Patsi, Angie & Jack-and so many I don't remember-it's amazing how we all have ties thanks to Papa's groups.

When we dance we still have people come up and say things like "your Dad taught me when I was young" or "your Dad danced at my wedding."

The other day I googled shalako / Armenian dance music and a link came up for Varoujan Movsesian and his famous toe touch on youtube. It shows him dancing at a wedding aqt St James Church in 1982. Ruben comes in with a cartwheel and dances with Varoujan for a minute then cartwheels out- you can hear Papa playing the Dahjol in the background. So much talent- so many memories- so much fun and I was actually embarassed because we were different. How sad.

Zina Elena

Adorable, funny and full of love- she was named after both of her Daddy's Grandmothers. She lives in Phoenix and we miss her like crazy.  

Zina Elena was born 5 months after her Daddy was killed in a car accident. They say that babies can see and hear Angels and I know it's true-I've heard her talk and laugh and I know her Daddy hears her.

5/9/08- I spoke with Zina last night. Olivia-her Grandmother, in Texas- put me on three way and Zina and her Mom Lauren in Arizona and  I got to talk for a while. Zina needs to get her tonsils out in July. She was born with all sorts of problems and really had us scared for a while. She has an Arachnoid Cyst on her brain which caused her to develop a little slowly at first- she didn't start to walk until she was about 1 1/2. She's makaing up for it now! Stephanie and I went to Phoenix last year to see her before Olivia moved to Texas and wow is she adorable! Then she was into Dora - now it's Alvin & the Chipmunks. (she rambled on and on and all I understood was ALVIN!)

She is stubborn and you can tell she is the boss. I miss her so much.

 

Jaime Ellen

Look at this face! It's the face of love! My Grandbaby Jaime Ellen lives in New Orleans and I'm in L.A. Born Nov 5, 2007 I still haven't held her in my arms. But she has to know that Grandma loves her more than life itself.

I hear her talking to me on the phone and I pray that I will see her soon.

Her Daddy Jaime Allen doesn't feel too good right now. He has an enlarged heart and living in the mold and dampness of New Orleans is slowing killing my son...........

5/29/08-She is so cute!!! She's standing up and climbing everywhere. She lights up when she sees her Mommy and Daddy. Jaime says she pulls herself up when he's in bed and all of a sudden a smiley face pops up over the side of the bed! And she raspberries everything! I am so proud! What a talented child.

Samantha

Samantha comes running into the house as if the world is chasing her. she is the biggest scaredy cat- no pun intended. She must have seen a leaf floating into the pool and that startled her. She's so funny. She loves you one second then runs. We found her 6 years ago when she fellout of a tree in the park. She's grown from the size of my palm to the  ball of fur she is today. Love her even if she is crazy.

May 5, 2008

I am sitting at my desk at work, thinking I should go home. Willie is waiting for work to call him to let him know when his truck will be ready for the drive to Las Vegas.

This weekend Shant got married in Santa Monica-I haven't danced like that since....???

I even got Mama up to dance. What a treat for everyone! She's still awesome! Too bad Papa couldn't dance. The hotel provided a wheelchair for him. Shant told Kara's family and friends that everyone that danced was taught by Jora. It's sad that Jora has slowed down so much-heartbreaking! For the last 60 years he's danced and made the world happy- now he can only watch. I know his mind still works- does it bother him that he's 91 and his body doesn't respond like it used to? I think it would make me nuts.